Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Selamat hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir & Batin. Semoga Ramadhan tahun membawa seribu satu rahmat dan semoga raya tahun ni memberi kebahagian dan kegembiraan kepada kita semua.
Amin....

Good Bye Germany, and Thank You . . .

Endlich. . .

After 5 & half years of struggle and hardship, my journey here as a student was ended on 20th May 2008. But it also the beginning of the new journey. But now, i just want to go back to Malaysia. 3 years since the my last stay there, and now i will going back home, not as a student but as a fully qualified german grad engineer. It really make me excited.

My friends always said, life as a student is far better and more fun than a working life. I have to admit the truth in the statement, but student life have so many limitation and being able to gain our own money by working, u finally can live ur life independently, getting married....

To all my prof, especially Prof. Kampmann, Prof Schönwand, Prof Bärwolff and many others, i really want to say thank you. Without ur help and kindness, i wont be here. Thank you very much.

And to all my friends out there, i wish u all the best, and thank you very much for ur support and i wont forget all the memories i gained here. And all the hardship and the happiness.

Wish me all the best....

End of my life as Schützen'er and Gummersbach'er

I'm counting my days before going back home (maybe for goods). Most of my stuffs are already on the way back home, the only things left are my beloved PC, my laptop and my clothings. My presentation will be on 20th May 2008 and i have to summit my thesis (diplomarbeit) at least this sunday, and i will on the last trip with this guys on this saturday. A one day trip to Holland.

It surely a very long n demanding journey begin at 4th January 2003 and it will end hopefully on 31th May 2008. I still can't imagine how much relieved when i in this stage, eventhough it the most critical time for me, to summit the thesis and present, packing, clean the house, settle all the contracts (Handphone, telefon, internet, gym, der Stadt etc2) and things with JPA and embassy.

I'm surely miss this city and mostly the malaysian who live here. We won't be able to hanging around like we used to, maybe we won't be able to meet each other for quite some times, but i hope the friendships between us will always there . . .

The End of the Journey

view from the Lab, originally uploaded by bakadasu.

My life as a student is at the end. I know it a bit late according to Malaysia's standard for someone as 'old' as me to begin a new life as a 'man', having a job, makingmoney on his own, drive his own car and maybe building his own family.

Looking back through time, i won't believed myself i will going back as a fully qualified engineer from Germany's university. It not easy for me to be in this level. A lot of hardship i been though for more than 5 years in Germany were not something i could forget thoughout my life. Meeting new people, having nice friends, experience new things and traving to the places i only could dream before.

Now it coming to the end. I excited to see the new world. And meeting new people. But when i looking around, i knew i will miss this place, miss my sweet room with my two monitors, miss the stadt Gummersbach, the PLUS where i buy all my groceries , miss Saturn where i survey and sometimes buy new gadget, miss Karstadt. It surely a very small n nice place to live.

And for sure i will miss the people i knew here. My friends. I knew that i would get anymore chance to enjoy this kind of life in the future. I really wish them all the best, we surely meet again near the future.

F i v e Y e a r s I n G e r m a n y

Hari ini aku secara official menghabiskan 5 tahun dari umur hidupku di bumi Germany. 5 tahun bukan satu jangkamasa yang sekejap. 5 tahun ialah umur anak2 dihantar ke tadika, dan 5 tahun ialah jangkamasa kite menghabiskan zaman sekolah menengah.

Aku masih lagi memegang title as a student. Tiada lagi achievement yang besar aku capai dalam hidup ini, dan sedar tak sedar umur aku sudah menjangkau 26 tahun ini dan aku masih lagi di bumi Germany, mencari ilmu Allah disini. Aku teringat akan diriku di zaman sekolah dulu, sering bermimpi akan apakah akan terjadi jikalau aku di umur aku ini. Mungkin aku yang dulu sedikit kecewa akan melihat aku yang sekarang.

Zaman berubah, manusia pun turut berubah. Aku sedar aku bukan lagi aku dahulu. Kawan2 aku kebanyakannya sudah berkerjaya, dan ramai yang sudah mendirikan rumahtangga, dan sudah ada yang mendapat cahaya mata. Aku? Aku insyallah akan menghabiskan masa 2008 untuk menyiapkan thesis aku yang baru beraper % berjalan, dan aku merancang untuk berkerja disini.

Aku teringat akan zaman semasa aku mula2 sampai di Germany. Itulah antara masa yang paling indah dalam hidup aku di bumi Germany ini. Masa itu aku still merasakan aku bermimpi. Tiada dalam impian akupun untuk aku sampai di bumi yg snow turun dan kabus keluar dari mulut. Dan aku masih ingat saat mula2 aku di Gummersbach, berdua dengan Khalid. Dan masa aku fail exam dan masa aku berputus asa. Saat2 itu banyak mengajar aku.

Jika aku diberi pilihan, aku rase aku still akan memilih untuk ke sini, walaupun aku tau aku akan end up as I'm right now. Kenape? Sebab waktu aku disini banyak belajar aku erti kehidupan, erti susah payah dan disini aku banyak belajar bukan sahaja tentang diri aku tapi tentang manusia.

Pengalaman aku 5 tahun disini aku akan ingat sampai mati...

Happy New Year

Berakhirlah tahun 2007 dan bermulah tahun 2008. Azam tahun baru? meyiapkan thesis dan menurunkan berat badan aku... maybe ada yang gelak akan azam aku tapi itu adalah harapan aku dan aku telahpun mengurangkan makan aku.

2007. Tahun yang banyak mengajar aku apa itu hidup dan perasaan, apa itu cinta dan kecewa dan tahun 2007 mengajar aku untuk belajar tentang apakan itu wanita dan perempuan. Aku tidak pernah terpikir satu event yang begitu memberi impak terhadap diri aku dan merubah aku menjadi aku yang lain.

Tapi aku berterima kasih, kerana aku mungkin tidak akan menjadi diriku sekarang jikalau tidak kerana itu. Dan aku berterima kasih kepada kawan2 aku, mendengar ceritaku dan bercerita kisahnya kepadaku. Aku banyak belajar tentang kehidupan. Benda2 ini banyak merubah perspektive aku terhadap perempuan dan relationship.

2007 juga merupakan tahun dimana paper terakhir aku sebagai student, tiada lagi exam untukku. Aku gembira kerana tahun 2008 insyallah merupakn tahun terakhir aku di bumi Germany, at least sebagai student.

Aku berharap 2008 memberi aku pengalaman yang lebih bermakna, merubah diriku menjadi orang yang lebih baik dan mendekatkan aku dengan Tuhan. dan tidak salah jika aku berharap 2008 ini aku akan berjumpa dengan someone special...

everyone, Happy New Year.

The end of 2007

Now we are at the end of yet another year, year 2007. Year 2007 maybe the most happening year in my life and one of the most important event happen that change my life forever.

This year is the probably last year where I celebrated Raya as a student (at least) in Germany. And maybe the last Annual Dinner I attend as a student, the last paper I took as a student...

I actually dont have any wish for the next year, not a big one at least. I want to finish my thesis as fast as i can, and maybe try to go to the gym; i need to take care of my health and my body.

Hopefully year 2008 will be the final year for me as a student in Germany. I plan to work here for at least one year. Lets just hope 2008 will be if not more, just as wonderful as a 2007.

For all my friends, i wish you happy new year, and hopefully the friendship will always continue...

Annual Grand Dinner (AGM 2007)

This time the event was held in Cologne, not near from my town. Well it still cannot be compare to the 1ts AGM i attended during my 1st year in Germany in 2003 in term of attendance of the Malaysian's students.

But it probably the most memorable AGM for me, as it will or probably the last AGM for me and most of students in ALG 4, at least as a student.

My friends, i wish you all the best and good luck.

The Beginning of Ramadhan..

Up to the Hill, originally uploaded by bakadasu.

Today is the 1st day of Ramadhan 1428 Hijrah, and the 4th Ramadhan for me in Germany and probably the most challenging.

Sebelum ini, Ramadhan datang pada waktu Winter, so we have a very nice n short day, sahur pukul 6 pagi dan berbuka pukul 5 ptg, tapi sekarang Ramadhan datang at the end of Summer, berpuasa di Germany seakan-akan berpuasa di Malaysia.

Hopefully Ramadhan kali ini berbawa 1001 keberkatan dan rahmat dan I really hope this will be my last Ramadhan for me as a student and last Ramadhan in Germany.

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan dan Selamat Berpuasa kepada semua umat Islam...

from Bakadasu, Germany.

Change...

The Good Old Days, originally uploaded by bakadasu.

We changed, people around us changed, the world is changing. We cant avoid to change, because all thing around us is changing, no matter how much effort we put into it. Being through alot of changing myself, I know it was not easy and it will never be easy.

I being living in Germany for almost 5 years now, and I saw lot of things changed. I still remember when I first came to Germany, I was the one of only two Malaysian students in my University. One and half years later, the community is grew up to be more then 10. We surely had a good time together, share the same hobbies, have the 'makan-makan' event once in a while, and hangout together after exam or Raya feast. It was the best time in my life living in this small town.

BUT, now things change, again. I know living as a Malaysian student in Germany is tough. There are lot of challenges awaiting us here, the language, the people, the culture and the exam. Through my life here I saw lot of people gave up in the middle of the studies, and some of them even force to go back to Malaysia because they just cant make it. And most of us actually already lost the motivation to go on. Some tried but fail. Some just scared. I life never goes easy, but I just don't know it this hard.

And now, we just lost one of our friend. And it have a huge impact on us. Everything is changed, that for sure. The house is dull and bored. And I really hate this. But life must go on. I will remember the good old days I had before, and I will make sure I'll be back to Malaysia with the Diplom, insyallah.

Bakadasu